00:11 [ 4th wall day ]

[aliveandticking]

there are a lot of people here today!
its probably not permanent but if anyone wants to visit me they can :)

actually i am not feeling very :) right now
i think i have made the right choice in not focusing on romance!
it is complicated
because its important
but because its important people get hurt over it
and it doesnt help that nobody knows what they feel
feelings are difficult to understand even if you understand everything else there is
so i dont have any creepy prophetic advice to give about it haha sorry

but i think probably
everyone will come out ok
either ok or dead which also fixes the problem

Comments

[aliveandticking]

its very important to us!
it is literally life or death
i mean not any more because our planet exploded but still

[hashrap]

it blows

[aliveandticking]

yeah thats true

[hashrap]

see nobody needs more than one relationship that just leads to clusterfucks of bullshit
we humans only have the one and we still fuck it up
were not supposed to get this fourway bullshit it messes with our heads

[aliveandticking]

i know its not what youre used to
but trolls arent used to having just one!
you get something different from everyone you see
the sort of person youd want as a moirail isnt the same kind that would be a good matesprit
but i think its good youre getting your feelings out about it

[hashrap]

what
no im not getting my feelings out about it
i dont have any feelings on it
other than it fucking sucks

[aliveandticking]

watch out or ill start using psychology again!
sucking is a feeling you know

[hashrap]

youd be better off leaving that shit to lalonde

[aliveandticking]

i can do anything i put my mind to
especially because sollux is important to me!

[hashrap]

what does he have to do with it

[aliveandticking]

he is relevant to your feelings about romance
dont you think

[hashrap]

yeah

[aliveandticking]

that means id have to get revenge if he got hurt
and i am tired of revenge
it is a little pointless!

[hashrap]

would you get revenge on him if i got hurt

[aliveandticking]

yes i would
in the form of a stern talking to
and that is what you would get too!

[hashrap]

ok
let me ask you something

[aliveandticking]

permission granted haha

[hashrap]

thanks
i dont actually have any questions to ask i just wanted to hear your take on quadrants i guess

[aliveandticking]

well
could you be more specific
there is potentially a lot to cover!

[hashrap]

spades and hearts i dont really care about the other two

[aliveandticking]

actually
the other two are more important for trolls!
in terms of surviving long enough to reproduce i guess
but humans are much calmer so i can understand why you wouldnt think theyre important
anyway
hearts seems to be the easiest to understand for humans!
it involves pity which isnt the same as human love although i guess its close
its a feeling of knowing someones weaknesses and wanting to protect them
and being attracted to them even though they have weaknesses
and maybe because of that
for trolls showing weakness usually means death so theres a lot of trust involved

[hashrap]

ok
and spades

[aliveandticking]

thats when you hate someone
maybe they think theyre better than you or they go out of their way to irritate you
for whatever reason you just cant stand them!
but you think about them all the time and theyre really attractive which just makes you angrier
so you fight all the time and hurt each other
but theres an understanding there which is
you dont want to actually win
because if you win and kill them they wont be there to fight!
and you know a lot about each other because youre always trying to get one up on them
so sometimes you find yourself starting to pity them in spite of yourself
and it irritates you because you dont want to pity them because theyre a rude arrogant snob and dont deserve it
so you try and hate them even more but theyre making it so hard that you dont even know your own mind!

[hashrap]

ok
and how
are the person you pity and the person you hate supposed to get along

[aliveandticking]

well
it doesnt really matter!
its not supposed to anyway
i mean generally its understood that you dont interfere in your partners quadrants
unless theres something really dangerous happening maybe youre not considered to have a lower appendage to stand on
its considered unreasonable to get jealous!