00:11 [ 4th wall day ]

[aliveandticking]

there are a lot of people here today!
its probably not permanent but if anyone wants to visit me they can :)

actually i am not feeling very :) right now
i think i have made the right choice in not focusing on romance!
it is complicated
because its important
but because its important people get hurt over it
and it doesnt help that nobody knows what they feel
feelings are difficult to understand even if you understand everything else there is
so i dont have any creepy prophetic advice to give about it haha sorry

but i think probably
everyone will come out ok
either ok or dead which also fixes the problem

Comments

[hashrap]

ok
and spades

[aliveandticking]

thats when you hate someone
maybe they think theyre better than you or they go out of their way to irritate you
for whatever reason you just cant stand them!
but you think about them all the time and theyre really attractive which just makes you angrier
so you fight all the time and hurt each other
but theres an understanding there which is
you dont want to actually win
because if you win and kill them they wont be there to fight!
and you know a lot about each other because youre always trying to get one up on them
so sometimes you find yourself starting to pity them in spite of yourself
and it irritates you because you dont want to pity them because theyre a rude arrogant snob and dont deserve it
so you try and hate them even more but theyre making it so hard that you dont even know your own mind!

[hashrap]

ok
and how
are the person you pity and the person you hate supposed to get along

[aliveandticking]

well
it doesnt really matter!
its not supposed to anyway
i mean generally its understood that you dont interfere in your partners quadrants
unless theres something really dangerous happening maybe youre not considered to have a lower appendage to stand on
its considered unreasonable to get jealous!

[hashrap]

shit

[aliveandticking]

dave are you jealous of eridan
you can tell me!
i understand humans arent used to these things

[hashrap]

no way thatd be stupid

[aliveandticking]

boys are always pretty stupid
its nothing to be ashamed of!

[hashrap]

i dont do jealous

[aliveandticking]

okay
do you do bothered

[hashrap]

no

[aliveandticking]

what do you do
besides cool

[hashrap]

dont do nothing but cool my swag is a thick impenetrable shell

[aliveandticking]

sometimes doing things other than cool comes in handy you know
i mean where would i be if i did nothing but mopey

[hashrap]

when do you do mopey

[aliveandticking]

i did nothing but mopey for a very long time!
mopey and gloomy
i pushed everyone away because i was so focused on doom and gloom!

[hashrap]

is that what you think im doing

[aliveandticking]

i think you dont want to push people away
but youre not sure you want them too close either

[hashrap]

ok
i dont think i think that

[aliveandticking]

then tell me what you think!
i may know the mysteries of time
but i am not infallible when it comes to people :)

[hashrap]

idk
maybe im not cut out for relationships or whatever
cant get my head around it dont know what to do etc etc

[aliveandticking]

to be honest
i think were all pretty bad at it
i think sometimes we forget that were not adults yet
and that we dont have to have all the answers
because were still figuring out the questions!
i messed things up too
and sometimes i still dont know what i want
but just because you cant get something correct right away doesnt mean youre not cut out for it

[hashrap]

just seems like a lot of hard work
aint like it is in the movies yknow

[aliveandticking]

you dont have to tell me twice

[hashrap]

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