Yeah. [He sighs] Aa, I know you weren't doing it on purpose. I don't blame you... that's not what I'm trying to say.

It's just that I've spent the last few months thinking that you probably blamed me, and that we were through as friends or anything else. And then you hugged me, and I thought you were dead again. But now you're you again, and I just...don't know where I stand. Or what you want. Or fuck, what I want.

The first gogdamn thing you say is that you're okay with me going out with ff. And that's fine, I guess. But it doesn't really help.